Veronica decides to die….

“Veronica decides to die” that’s  a wonderful book written by Paulo Coelho.That was my first one of Paulo’s books….and it touched me so much that from that day onwards I’ve read almost every book of his.

Today I felt strongly to write about how I felt, what came to my mind,..and most of it, why this story of his is so close to my heart!

One fine day I  picked up this blue colour book which I had bought on my trip to Delhi, and was lying there simply for days now.I started reading but wasn’t still into it, eventually as it progressed I was so much into it that veronica was alive for me! Yes! it literally felt as if she’s not just a character but in fact a real person whom I know, morover felt like myself!

Although Paulo is the one who’s extremely good in this art, still there aren’t too many stories or characters one could relate so strongly with.That’s why it is special! special to me!

Veronica had everything she could have wished for..! She was young and pretty, had plenty of attractive boyfriends.., had a steady job, a loving family………

But inspite of all the good things , people and happiness in her life , she was not happy; some thing always lacked in her life..! I think that’s the state ..all of us  face or feel at least once in our lives! Don’t we?

But still nobody knows the answer…, nobody knows why inspite of everything fulfilling there is some hollowness…, why everything bieng so much in place ; few things are always misplaced in our lives.

So many of such questions came to my mind when I was  with Veronica; Paulo’s Veronica……..relating…. and even feeling the same pain at times , which she was going through. Yes !, I could feel how she must have felt!

Suddenly everything  comes to a stand still..as she takes her own life surrendering  and succumbing to the circumstances, she suicides……!That moment I’m withdrawn to my own self!Not able to relate myself with the one at that moment, I still continued reading the novel.

Few pages more and Veronica was alive again! But to a harsher reality that she had very little time to live now. Yes, she was saved but now had a heart problem which doctors said will take her life soon.

The realisation  immidiately changes her whole mind…,her thoughts, her feelings, her beliefs, her perspective and her definition of happiness……everything! I, again into my thought process, questioned my own self again and again.

Is surrendering to the circumstances  the only answer? No! not for me atleast! Even I’ve felt extremely low and miserable at times, but somehow managed to come over all of it. And that’s what has given me strength! I’ve learnt that life is too precious to be wasted or lost.

Now I don’t believe in regretting but instead in seeing lessons which I’ve learnt  and moving further.Coz’ those are responsible to get me to my current strength and wisdom!

For me Veronica who was weak, fragile, vulnerable, confused has died! That was Veronica- or that was me!?

The Veronica who’s alive with new dreams, new hopes, new happiness and a life full of love is the one who lives, and will always live…….. in me, in you in all of us!